My Soul's Cry

This post is somewhat different than my other ones.As much as I love celebrating the birth of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ this was a stressful and painful Christmas for me.The reasons for it shall remain unspoken of here.Though I am now hopeful that things will soon change I wrote the following on Christmas Day:

My Soul's Cry

My soul is grieved within me.Sorrow has covered me like a shroud.Oh how I long for the light of Your joy to renew me.To fill mylife with light once again.And yet I wander about in a fog.A darkness that seems to hide the light of Your presence.I long to be free of those chains that seem to bind me to my sorrow.To soar once again like the eagle.To ride on the wind of Your Holy Spirit.To look down upon the mountaintops from where Your Spirit has carried me.To see things from Your perspective.To truly know that all will be well and to know You as You know me.This is the cry of my heart today Father God.

As I finished what I thought was going to be a poem I realized it really was more of a prayer to my Heavenly Father.It was the cry of my heart on Sunday and it is still the cry of my heart today to see things from Heaven's perspective.To know my Father as He knows me.To soar above the sadness that poured from my heart as I originally wrote this prayer.I pray that you will take comfort from this and make this prayer your own.Insert your own name where appropriate.Personalize it.Make it your own.Make it your own heart and soul's cry.

Blessings,Sharon

Life&Death

Merry Christmas everyone!I obviously have not posted in awhile here.Life was busy.Too busy.I was feeling uninspired.Too many things clouded my mind.Mostly doctor's appointments and such for my husband and I.In spite of it all I found so much to be grateful for as we celebrated our 13th wedding anniversary,Thanksgiving and my 44th birthday all within a space of about 2 weeks starting November 21st!I have always loved the Autumn and Winter time of year.Even before moving to the Pacific Northwest in 1991.I relished the cooler temperatures that I knew would be arriving soon(I grew up in Sacramento).I did'nt even mind the lack of light here in the Northwest(my Irish complexion definitely prefers the rain soaked Northwest to California's sunshine).I have friends(who will remain nameless)who prefer summer time.When they think of Autumn and Winter they think of death.Steve and I both thought about death today too.We went to visit some former neighbors today.A lovely Christian senior couple.The husband is dying of cancer.This will be his last Christmas on earth here.He has maybe a month left.We celebrate the birth of Christ this month.New life.God's arrival in the flesh.Emmanuel.God with us.And yet we were talking about and dealing with the impending death of a friend.You would not have known it though to listen in on our conversations today or to hear our laughter.All of us gathered there are believers in Jesus Christ.Because of that we can have hope in the midst of grief.Laughter though we know we'll shed some tears soon when our dear friend is promoted to heaven.Life in the midst of death.And for our dear friend his body may be dying but his spirit,his inner man,is flourishing.Growing.Full of life.And that is why we can say with Paul"Therefore we do not lose heart.Even though our outward man is perishing,yet the inward man is being renewed day by day."Life and death in one body.But because of the hope we have in Emmanuel,God with us, we are able to face even the impending death of a friend.May God bless each of you with a beautiful Christmas and a joy filled New Year.
Blessings,Sharon