A Cancelled Check

I've been thinking alot about the past lately.I'm not really sure why.Maybe it's a middle age thing.Maybe not.Maybe it's me trying to make sense of some of the things that have gone on in my past.Maybe not.Or maybe,just maybe,it is God trying to show me that the past is just that,the past.And maybe He's trying to gently remind me that we can spend too much time in the past.Trying to figure things out.Trying to re connect with a part of us that, though gone,may still,in some ways affect us today.My former pastor,from my youth,used to say this about the past(and life in general"yesterday is a cancelled check,tomorrow is a promissory note,today is ready cash spend it wisely."I cannot fix my past,either things done to me or by me.It is past.Things that happened then are not to be focused on now.Unless it is to help me make better choices now.To propel me forward.Sadly enough,my focus on the past lately served little purpose that I can see.If anything it robbed me of a sense of a better tomorrow.Will Rogers said"Don't let yesterday use up too much of today."That's exactly what I had been doing.I had been letting thoughts of the past rob me of too much of today.It was,in a sense,sucking the life right out of my spirit.It was crushing my creativity.I'm thankful to Jesus for revealing that to me.I want to continue to move forward.To pursue His destiny and calling for my life.But too much time spent mentally in the past was ruining that.Making it null and void like a proverbial cancelled check.And all the while the Lord was whispering"Forget the former things;do not dwell on the past.See,I am doing a new thing!Now it springs up;do you not perceive it?I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland."(Isaiah 43:18-19 NIV).So,Lord willing(and He is :-))I am going to make peace with my past completely and continue to move forward in what He is doing.I do not want to live my life like a cancelled check.How about you?

Blessings~Sharon